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It has been 2 weeks since I found out I am pregnant. I am still on cloud nine. I am still feeling great, I haven't had any real symptoms yet. A few little things here and there but not sure if they are related or not. I will be seeing a doctor November 24. They will do an ultrasound and a bunch of other stuff. Sadly they will probably want my blood too :(. Isaac wants to name the baby Yoda, that is so not going to happen. He even asked if Yoda could be the middle name, um sorry son but NO! I did however tell him he could give the baby a nickname. Sidebar: I really don't like calling my babies "it" while I am carrying them. You may recall my first was DJ (stood for Denise Junior but was changed to just DJ after I lost her) and Isaac was called Walker all of my pregnancy. Wanting Isaac to feel included, I let him choose the name for this one during my pregnancy. So I am proudly awaiting the birth of baby Yoda (it was that or Darth Vader).

The miracle in me.

All babies are special and miraculous but there is a story behind baby Yoda that makes him/her a true miracle. Many of you probably know that I used an anonymous donor to conceive Isaac. When Isaac was about 2 or 3, I met a woman on-line who had used the same donor that I had. She told me that she had contacted the bank we used to see if she could use the same donor to have a sibling for her daughter. They told her the donor had no "supply" left and had moved out of the area, so even if they could locate him, it would be thousands of dollars for him to travel back to the area, stay a week or two, and go through all the tests again all at our expense. When I contacted them they told me the same thing. That pretty much meant that Isaac would never have a full biological sibling. I didn't really see it as a huge deal. Yes, it would have been nice for Isaac to have a full sibling, but any child I am mother to, whether it be by birth or by adoption, will be his sibling. Still I had a twinge of regret. Fast forward a few years to now. A few months ago I was perusing the bank's donor list and low and behold there was Isaac's donor listed. I was floored. I immediately contacted the bank and they told me yes, this was the same donor, and they had 5 vials left. When I contacted them again before I was ready to order, the donor was down to 4 vials. I planned on using 3 vials to try this time so this was a one shot deal. DJ took 4 tried with 2 vials each try to conceive and Isaac took 3 tries with 2 vials each try. It didn't seem like I had much hope. But as you know, God is Great, all the time and 2 weeks ago we got our miracle.

The carnivore in me.

My name is Denise and I am a closet meat eater. That's right, I am once again eating meat. During my pregnancy with Isaac I ate meat. Protein is very important for fetal brain development and Isaac is very intelligent. Whether meat eating played a part in this or not, I don't know but I want to give baby Yoda the same chance I gave Isaac, so for the next 9 (maybe more if I feel it will help with nursing) I will be consuming beef, chicken, and turkey.

And THAT is all the news that is fit to print.

13 pregnancy tests later I finally get my answer.

This morning I got my answer. I am pregnant!!!!! Baby Fournier #2 is due June 27, 2011.

Never was able to get my HPTs.

We are okay, but my son Isaac and I were in a car accident tonight. I was driving to get some more HPTs and as I was pulling into the dollar store parking lot, I over shot the driveway and hit the curb hard (yes I am an idiot). No other cars were involved and the car will be repaired at minimal cost thanks to a nice tow truck driver. The only injury I have is some nasty burns to my arm and belly from the airbag and seat belt (I assume that's how the belly one happened.) My arm also has some swelling on my wrist where the burn is but the paramedics checked me out and said I will be fine. I mentioned I might be pregnant and they said I should be okay this early on. Isaac was uninjured.

Perhaps I will try again to get some tests tomorrow.

I have officially lost my mind.

I am 11 pregnancy tests in and with the last one I took just a few minutes ago, it seemed like maybe possibly there was a very slight, very faint, maybe, possibly a line. The tests says read at 3 minutes and not after 10. At 3 minutes there was nothing but at 9 and 1/2, I don't know.... of course I had to analyze with a flashlight and then take the test apart. I am not counting this as a positive because I think maybe I am just insane and I am seeing magical lines that don't exist. But of course now I am off to the dollar store to buy some more HPTs because I am all out. Just call me Denise the loony bird.

Venting

I know it isn't over till the old hag shows up but I am ending day 11 of the 2ww (2 week wait) and all I keep getting are BFNs (Big Fat Negatives). With my 1st baby (miscarriage) I had a BFP (Big Fat Positive) on day 12 and with my son (now 7 1/2) I got the BFP on day 10. I never got a BFN with either of them. I know I tested way too soon this time but shouldn't I know by now?

I felt nauseous all day and was sure I would get a BFP tonight but didn't. I do tend to get nauseous very easily. I also have had that slight crampy pre-period feeling today too so I don't know what to think. :(

I guess a few more days and I will know for sure.

Sorry had to vent.

Waiting is hard

It is amazing how hard it is to wait. To wait for something you want so badly. I have taken 6 pregnancy tests so far but no positives yet. Praying I get that beautiful double line soon.

waiting, waiting, waiting

Today is Saturday. It is day 5 of the dreaded 2 week wait. This morning, I thought I was on day 6 and I took a home pregnancy test (HPT). In hindsight I realize it is way too soon. Yet i will probably still take another one tomorrow morning. Hey, peeing in a cup is fun. This afternoon I felt a suddle weird pinching feeling coming from my womb area and then felt just a tab bit crampy this afternoon. Could this be implantation? I hope so. I guess time will tell.

I am done

Well I am done with #3. There seemed to be some leakage but hopefully at some point in one of these, one little swimmer made his way and found the egg. Now I wait.....

I must be crazy.

I must be crazy but I already feel pregnant. I am 100% sure it is all in my head. Anyway insemination #2 went much better than #1 with no leakage at all. The insemination kit comes with 2 pieces, a needless syringe and a long tube attachment. The first time I used both and I think that may be what caused some leakage (hoping it wasn't a lot). The second time I only used the syringe and it was much better so that's what I will do for number 3 as well. So far I have done #1 at 12 hours post + on the OPK (ovulation predictor kit) and #2 at 21 1/2 hours post +. I am thinking I will do #3 around 10pm tonight so that will be 34 hours post +. Please keep the prayers coming.

#2 is coming right up.

Last night I did my first insemination. I didn't think it went really well, there seemed to be some spillage and I am not sure how much actually got in. This time I am not using the little tube attachment on the syringe, just the syringe itself.

My second insemination will happen here in a few minutes.

Please send up some prayers for success for me.

The time has come.

In just a few minutes I will begin the preparations to do the first insemination. Time to move one step closer to making more dreams come true.

D day is here

I really haven't gotten into this blogging stuff much yet but hopefully I will have lots to blog about very soon.

I have been testing to see if I am going to ovulate since last Wednesday. Today (Sunday) I finally got a +++ so I will be doing my 3 inseminations tonight (1) and tomorrow (2). I am very excited and I am praying this works. This could be my only chance to give Isaac a full biological sibling. Not that it really matters that much but it would be nice.

In preparation for this day I have been doing lots of things to increase my fertility. These things include drinking decaf green tea, eating lots of health foods like leafy greens, citrus fruit, carrots, carrot and blueberry juice, spinach, dairy and avoiding fertility inhibiting foods like soy, tofu (MAN I MISS MY TOFU), processed foods, and just anything junky in general. I also stopped taking a medication I take that is dangerous in pregnancy (don't worry, it is not the important one) and taking folic acid, prenatals, and calcium.

Last night I dreamed I had a baby boy and having him didn't hurt a bit (HA!) I hope at least part of that dream comes true.

Well tonight begins a journey which could change my life forever. Please say a special prayer for me, that if this is God's will, that I will be blessed with another beautiful child. Thank you.